I refuse to write about what’s going on in our country because I can’t say anything that hasn’t been said already by so many other bloggers out there. Therefore, I’m going to write about what I know best! Myself. Does that make me conceded?
One night last August, I was lying awake in bed and my thoughts wouldn’t let me sleep. I literally could not stop thinking about relationships, all kinds of relationships, but the ones of dating and courtship were the ones that were sticking out most. I was thinking about my friends who have all dated and I was thinking about my sister and my brother-in-law and how it came to pass that they got married. How did it work? How do people hook up? What’s the process?
My entire life, God has had His arms wrapped around me, protecting me of everything that results in pain, hurt, and confusion. Not that I haven’t dabbled in my share of those things. Because I have. However, not to the extent of what I could have gone through had I not been so protected by God. Hallelujah. Praise Jesus. My heart remains intact and where it belongs, which be inside me.
That night, lying awake, it dawned on me how much God was in control of my life and literally guiding my every step. And I felt so at peace. However, I still couldn’t fall asleep and I still couldn’t get my mind off the subject. I started asking God, Why can’t I stop thinking about this? I realize how much You’re with me and I don’t have to worry about these things. So why can’t I just sleep and not concern myself with this anymore? It wasn’t one minute later that I grew incredibly tired and sunk deep into my mattress, and it was because of this: God said that this year was going to be different and that my life was going to change.
And oh, how different it hath been thus far… I can only imagine what is to come.