I tell stories. It’s one of the things I do. I was telling a story tonight and I somehow managed to bring all the attention on myself, when I was actually only telling the story to Austin. I maintained eye contact with him as I explained the story, but I could feel several other people’s eyes falling on me… I’m not sure why, but I was very self-conscious during that time. And I can honestly say that 95% of the time, everyone was laughing. And fairly hysterically. I was embarrassed. Really, really embarrassed. At one point, Leah made a gesture about my head… I’m not sure, but I think she was joking about it becoming inflated or something because of the reaction I was receiving from everyone. And I became even more embarrassed. All innocent. All just having fun. I’ve never felt that way after making people laugh.
Leah kept joking around and was patting my cheek. Her hands were freezing.
“Your face is really warm, Car.”
“Yeah… I know… And your hands are really cold, so that actually feels pretty good… Keep doing that…”
Anything to hide the fact that my face was burning red from feeling so out of place… And it was so weird! Because making people laugh is quite a normal thing for me! I don’t know what my problem was… That’s just never happened before.