I don’t like it. Not at all. Never have I had so many friends at one time all in committed relationships. Allow me to rant briefly…
I have friends who are coming home for the summer and I have been anticipating their return for several months now. However, I’ve come to realize that while I want to hang out with them, they probably don’t want to spend too much time with me, because well… They’d rather spend their time with that other person. Because the benefits of kissing and spooning are those I can’t offer. The reality of the situation is that while my friends are coming home, they probably won’t be around much. And I’ll be honest–it pisses me off.
What’s even worse is that even if my friends do take a day to spend with me, they’ll probably bring up their significant other and mention how much they miss them. And while my natural reaction will be to roll my eyes, I’ll force myself to sympathize and say, “I know.” Worser still, I’ll have to remind them of the fun they could be having with me and say, “But we’re here and this’ll be fun! Cmon! It’ll be great!”
Of course, when I invite everyone over for pizza and movies, the couples will smoosh together on my couch and those who don’t fit will sit on the floor, propped up against each other. Will anyone want to sit next to me? Not likely. Not when they have someone whose hand they can hold while sitting. I can picture it all now. Everyone divided into two’s, while I sit at the dinner table, secretly plotting against them, Oh what will I blog about you tonight??
I truly miss having single friends. Because then, I could actually talk about something besides how great someone else is.
“Isn’t he so great? I love him so much.”
“Yeah, I know.” I KNOW.
“He would love it here. I wish he could be here.”
“Yeah, I bet.” Don’t say you miss him.
“I miss him.”
“I can’t blame you.” Prepare to die.
“It’s okay. I’ll see him tomorrow.”
“That’s good.” Look at me! Look at me! Look at me! Look at me! Look at me!
“I’m gonna call him.”
“Tell him I say ‘hi’.” And that I plan on killing him tomorrow.
Please don’t let this happen. All of you who are going home to your families and friends, spend your time wisely. I’m not telling you to not be with that special someone, but I want to remind everyone that you have other friends who are still fun and longing for your time. The majority of people express love through quality time and I am no exception.
I’m tired of feeling alone already.